Awareness is not a state
“Remain in a state of Awareness.”
“Move into deeper Awareness.”
“Sometimes I’m in Awareness and then I fall back.”
That’s all because of the mistaken idea that there is a self that can be in Awareness.
“Awareness” is not a state. You can’t get into it or out of it. You can’t deepen, expand, or rest in it.
There is an eternal, infinite Presence that is conscious, aware. (Indescribable).
It is, was, and will be before, beyond, and after the concept of “you” doing anything even appears.
How does a fictitious entity without agency “access” that?
We've split everything into two again:
Me on the one hand and the Awareness I fall into on the other — duality.
But the very idea of a self appears within what is eternally present and aware, not the other way around.
If you make this into a state that “you” can be in, you’re hopelessly lost in the separate self.
Awareness is not about you at all.
Takes a while, doesn’t it?
First you realise that there’s something else.
Next you go seeking it.
You learn to call it awareness.
You look, listen, mindfully meditate, retreat as often as you can.
And then suddenly, or very slowly, (it doesn’t matter or signify) you notice the awareness that is and was and will be all the time. The awareness you have fondly named “you”.
And you are in awe.
Literally.
A-w-a-r-e.
(We’re not being pedantic over vowels, are we?)
I wish I’d known this before.
Before when?