Exhausted of searching this beyond so frustratingly hard to find…this so beyond and search….the loop just keeps going out of survival instinct, however…inside it, no more desire ledt to go on. No more desire at all.
I won't pretend to know what it is like for you and I won't pretend I can help. I was frustrated and exhausted for many years. Nothing anyone wrote or said seemed to help me.
Still, today this response comes:
It can't be found because it is what is searching. It is the searching itself.
It is the simple aliveness, the simple fact of being, of existence — all of it.
Are you alive?
This aliveness itself is what is always being pointed to.
We think it doesn't mean anything.
But without aliveness there would be nothing.
We limit the aliveness to the experience of a separate self.
But if we investigate, we find there is no limitation to it.
It's not "you are alive"
It's all of this is alive.
The aliveness includes everything, it isn't limited to the idea of you.
And it is never not there.
That's my best shot today! 😸
I apologize if it sounds like I know something you don't or am trying to convince you of something. Neither is the case.
It is frustrating and annoying until it is obvious and freeing.
The self keeps looping, keeps doing its selfing.
But at some point, the activity of selfing is seen for what it is: Neither true nor false, just not what we essentially are.
This is the most empathetic thing I have read from you, Kat, thank you! Maybe that's exactly the missing link between the human beings blessed with the settling in that Realization/into beingness and the rest of us, still trapped in the illusory, yet so very strong web of our own woven stories. To know that the 'blessed' Ones do care, from beyond/behind their only obvious mission to promote the only big Truth of the 'no-self'/emptiness of self.
I have no interest in promoting this. It's why I don't teach and don't coach anymore. And also why I try my best to only describe and not prescribe anything in these daily reminders.
The ego can definitely not abandon/drop itself, obviously. When thathappens, it only happens through grace, I know - not that it helps or ever will. On this other side of the “inaginary” fence, that neutrality does feel cold and aloof. As if speaking only to the blessed finders of Truth out there.
beautiful. Thank you.
🙏
Just beautiful Kat - thank you so much 🙏 “Undoing the hubris of self's siren call”. Long afloat on shipless oceans.
Cat Poetry! Beautiful!
I love this.
“Author! Author!” No-one? “Acknowledge source!”
Who is to acknowledge source? No-one?
“Who is source?” No-one?
Beautiful 🌀🙏
Beautiful 🌀🙏
Poetry brings potency to pointing. Gratitude appears.
Just exquisite poetry with profound pointers, something to be treasured but not attached...
🎶✨
Doesn't feel at all close or near from the other side of the great divider/splitter....
No, it doesn't feel close at all.
It's not findable in a feeling or a thought.
It is what makes any feeling, close or far, possible.
Exhausted of searching this beyond so frustratingly hard to find…this so beyond and search….the loop just keeps going out of survival instinct, however…inside it, no more desire ledt to go on. No more desire at all.
I won't pretend to know what it is like for you and I won't pretend I can help. I was frustrated and exhausted for many years. Nothing anyone wrote or said seemed to help me.
Still, today this response comes:
It can't be found because it is what is searching. It is the searching itself.
It is the simple aliveness, the simple fact of being, of existence — all of it.
Are you alive?
This aliveness itself is what is always being pointed to.
We think it doesn't mean anything.
But without aliveness there would be nothing.
We limit the aliveness to the experience of a separate self.
But if we investigate, we find there is no limitation to it.
It's not "you are alive"
It's all of this is alive.
The aliveness includes everything, it isn't limited to the idea of you.
And it is never not there.
That's my best shot today! 😸
I apologize if it sounds like I know something you don't or am trying to convince you of something. Neither is the case.
It is frustrating and annoying until it is obvious and freeing.
The self keeps looping, keeps doing its selfing.
But at some point, the activity of selfing is seen for what it is: Neither true nor false, just not what we essentially are.
This is the most empathetic thing I have read from you, Kat, thank you! Maybe that's exactly the missing link between the human beings blessed with the settling in that Realization/into beingness and the rest of us, still trapped in the illusory, yet so very strong web of our own woven stories. To know that the 'blessed' Ones do care, from beyond/behind their only obvious mission to promote the only big Truth of the 'no-self'/emptiness of self.
I have no interest in promoting this. It's why I don't teach and don't coach anymore. And also why I try my best to only describe and not prescribe anything in these daily reminders.
https://dailynonduality.substack.com/p/there-is-no-project-here
As for caring, the impersonal nature of this can make it sound cold and aloof.
I tried to express some of that here:
https://dailynonduality.substack.com/p/i-dont-care-so-there-is-caring
The ego can definitely not abandon/drop itself, obviously. When thathappens, it only happens through grace, I know - not that it helps or ever will. On this other side of the “inaginary” fence, that neutrality does feel cold and aloof. As if speaking only to the blessed finders of Truth out there.
The understanding becomes clearer and clearer. So clear I share it with clients to point to what is Real and True.
And yet, it’s not a bloody understanding.
HERE is closer than close.